Tonight's picture was taken in August of 2003. Mattie was a year old. This was Mattie's second trip to Los Angeles. That day we took him to the LA Zoo. Mattie loved adventure and for the most part was a great traveler. He took in his environment and was fascinated by animals. I loved seeing the world through Mattie's eyes.
Quote of the day: The cure for a broken heart is simple, my lady. A hot bath and a good night’s sleep. ~ Margaret George
Tonight, I feel absolutely overwhelmed. So on the edge that I landed up screaming my head off. It is just non-stop issues, problems, and things that I need to be fixed and addressed. There is one of me that is fully functioning in my house and in addition to managing everything, I care for two people who need constant attention. Later this afternoon, I was on the phone with our alarm company for almost two hours. Was the issue resolved? NO! So to add to my weekend, I need to have another remote call with these folks. Apparently they aren't charging me for this tech call, because the problem is on their end. Here's the funny part! The tech thanked me by saying, "you were very cooperative while I was explaining and setting up the things for you and I truly appreciate it. I have FEW customers over chat who stay cool and calm, and you were one of them."
So I have the alarm company on Sunday and our plumber tomorrow. He is coming over to show me how to flush out the sump pump. Apparently it needs this every three months, and hopefully he will teach me, so I don't need his services every few months. Truthfully who ever thought home ownership was a great idea, needs to talk with me. It is over rated and stressful, especially when you are managing it alone. By the time I am finished, I will know how to operate everything in this house by myself.
Overall however, I am very angry. I am angry at my life, I am angry at Peter's poor and cruel treatment of me, I am angry that I am picking up urine and poop all day long, and my list goes on and on. When I get like this, what I have to do is go outside. I watered plants, weeded, and tried to reset. It was in the dark, but it was what I had to do. I have yet to understand how I manage to exist, and some day when you hear my story, you will most likely understand the depths of the craziness I face.
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