Friday, July 19, 2024

Friday, July 19, 2024

Tonight's picture was taken in July of 2002. Mattie was three months old. Someone sent us this bouncy seat for Mattie, which played music. The notion of this chair was fabulous in theory, but unfortunately it wasn't up Mattie's alley. Mattie disliked being seat belted into anything, and he always wanted his legs dangling and able to move about. So this chair was very short lived in our home.

Quote of the day: To fall in love is awfully simple, but to fall out of love is simply awful. ~ Bess Myerson

Today I took my parents and Karen to Chez Francois. This is a special restaurant in Great Falls, VA. They offer four course menus and they have a beautiful patio setting, surrounded by gardens. They grow many of their own vegetables that they highlight within their menus. 

For many years, Peter and I dined there on our anniversary. I won't lie, sitting on the patio today was bittersweet. It reminded me of so many happy times, a time when I thought my marriage was forever. I never questioned that reality. 

I started with a trio of salmon. 

Then had their garden tomato salad. 

Followed by soft shelled crabs. 

The four of us! My dad is getting to be a very picky eater. He used to love all sorts of foods. Now the only thing he wants to eat is shrimp. So thankfully today they made him a shrimp entree which wasn't on the menu. 

We celebrated my birthday a week early. I assure you the last thing I want to acknowledge is my birthday and I definitely do not feel like celebrating. NOT ON ANY LEVEL. 

Our lovely waiter snapped this photo of me!

When I got home today, I was inundated with messages from my lawyer. All of this makes me sick with sadness and anxiety. I then went to cut a cantaloupe and in the process cut the skin right off my thumb. It took me about 40 minutes to stop the profuse bleeding! I chalk this up to being exhausted and heart broken. Each day I wake up and then go to bed with the same question...... HOW DID THIS HAPPEN TO ME?