Mattie Miracle 15th Anniversary Video

Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation Promotional Video

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to us that you take the time to write to us and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful to us and help support us through very challenging times. To you we are forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically stop writing on September 9, 2010. However, at the moment, I feel like our journey with grief still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with us, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki and Peter



The Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation celebrates its 7th anniversary!

The Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation was created in the honor of Mattie.

We are a 501(c)(3) Public Charity. We are dedicated to increasing childhood cancer awareness, education, advocacy, research and psychosocial support services to children, their families and medical personnel. Children and their families will be supported throughout the cancer treatment journey, to ensure access to quality psychosocial and mental health care, and to enable children to cope with cancer so they can lead happy and productive lives. Please visit the website at: www.mattiemiracle.com and take some time to explore the site.

We have only gotten this far because of people like yourself, who have supported us through thick and thin. So thank you for your continued support and caring, and remember:

.... Let's Make the Miracle Happen and Stomp Out Childhood Cancer!

A Remembrance Video of Mattie

March 9, 2012

Friday, March 9, 2012

Friday, March 9, 2012

Tonight's picture was taken in October of 2002. Mattie was five months old and featured in another item which he greatly disliked, his stroller. In fact, Mattie went through about four strollers, until we found one he tolerated. His facial expression says it all... "I'm not happy! Get me out of this stroller now!!!"


Quote of day: You cannot teach a man anything, you can only help him to find it for himself. ~ Galileo Galilei


I had another bad night of sleep. However, as the morning rolled around, my attitude had improved and I wasn't focused upon my medical issues. I had a productive three hour licensure board meeting, but when I got home, I got a call from one of my doctor's offices telling me that the mass was still there and was the same size. Certainly the same size is better than the mass growing, but I had hoped that perhaps it would shrink or disappear. Not realistic I know, but I had hoped for this, so I could put this behind me. Frankly living with not knowing what is going on inside of me is very challenging. I am simply stunned that there is no effective way to biopsy this mass and my choices are multiple scans per year or a radical surgery.

Needless to say, for the rest of the day, I lost my appetite and by the time Peter came home from work, I was in a complete funk. So I am signing off for tonight in hopes that tomorrow is a better day.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

I am sorry to hear that things continue to be rough; Dr Marlow sounds wonderful though and hopefully he can help to get to the bottom of the problem and find a workable solution. Thinking of you this evening and wishing you a peaceful, restful night
-Charlie

Anonymous said...

Dear Vicki,

You continue to amaze me every time I read your entries. You are not superwoman, yet you display an array of atributes that superwoman would kill to have: a fighting attitude, courage, humility, determination, gratitude, honesty, and an indomitable spirit.

I truly admire and respect you. Even though we've never meet, please know that you are in my thoughts and always wish for good things to come your way.
With my deepest respect,
Esther from Burbank,