Mattie Miracle 15th Anniversary Video

Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation Promotional Video

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to us that you take the time to write to us and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful to us and help support us through very challenging times. To you we are forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically stop writing on September 9, 2010. However, at the moment, I feel like our journey with grief still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with us, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki and Peter



The Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation celebrates its 7th anniversary!

The Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation was created in the honor of Mattie.

We are a 501(c)(3) Public Charity. We are dedicated to increasing childhood cancer awareness, education, advocacy, research and psychosocial support services to children, their families and medical personnel. Children and their families will be supported throughout the cancer treatment journey, to ensure access to quality psychosocial and mental health care, and to enable children to cope with cancer so they can lead happy and productive lives. Please visit the website at: www.mattiemiracle.com and take some time to explore the site.

We have only gotten this far because of people like yourself, who have supported us through thick and thin. So thank you for your continued support and caring, and remember:

.... Let's Make the Miracle Happen and Stomp Out Childhood Cancer!

A Remembrance Video of Mattie

August 3, 2017

Thursday, August 3, 2017

Thursday, August 3, 2017

Tonight's picture was taken in August of 2008. Mattie was a month into treatment. We were pictured in the outpatient clinic, at the art table. Mattie's two art therapists, Jenny (in orange) and Jessie (next to us), were beyond outstanding. These two women entered our lives almost on day one, and I don't know where we would have been without them. Not only did they believe that art came from within the child, they also were very insightful and excellent at helping Mattie get at his feelings and emotions through his art. It was never contrived or planned, but natural! These women set a beautiful, trusting, and respectful tone that produced not only wonderful creations from Mattie, but on difficult days helped Mattie get out of his shell. I am not sure these therapists know this, but all the art Mattie created while battling cancer, I now consider legacy items that we cherish. When people think childhood cancer is ALL about the medicine, I just shake my head. At the end of the day it is how you were TREATED as a person that remains with you always. The medications, dosages, and so forth fade from consciousness. 


Quote of the day: Formal education teaches how to stand, but to see the rainbow you must come out and walk many steps on your own.Amit Ray


It was a full day of one chore after the other. Regardless of what I have to do, Sunny still needs to be walked. One thing is certain about Sunny.... he knows how to get his needs met. At times I feel like a sheep being herded by Sunny. Based on Sunny's breed he has a natural instinct to herd things, but he doesn't do this with Peter. Only I am the lucky one. Later this evening while out walking Sunny, I met my next door neighbor outside. She grew up on a sheep and cattle farm, so she is very familiar with herding dogs. The first thing she said to me tonight was that Sunny looks like he has settled down. I looked at her quisitively. She then explained that when we first got Sunny he looked very anxious, but now she says he is like a different dog. She credited that to me, with my time and patience with him. I would have to agree. Sunny skews nervous, and has anxieties. I am hoping in time he will learn that we aren't going to abandon him and that he has consistent access to food. FOOD is Sunny's number 1. He will give up walks and love for FOOD. He is always food seeking and I have to believe this is part of being rescued. Yet something I need to work on with him, because regardless of how much we walk, he gains weight. 

This evening I went grocery shopping. As is typical in DC during the summer.... we get horrific rain, thunder, and lightning storms. Before I got to the store, it wasn't raining. But while inside the store, I could hear thunder and lightning. However, I was in the store no enough that when I exited it, look what I saw. A wonderful rainbow. It was the highlight of my day. 


As I was seeing the sight above, my friend in cancer sent me this photo from her home. So we traded rainbow photos! Mattie loved rainbows and as is typical of me, whenever something special like this occurs in nature, I view it as a sign from Mattie. 

1 comment:

Margy Jost said...

Vicki, Despite the heavy rainfall in Burke, I missed the rainbow. I did however see the Mattie Moon, not quite full yet but very bright in the sky as we ate dinner on our porch. Rainbows as well as Butterflies are important to me. They bring memories of Children, going through Cancer treatment drawing,, creating with sculpey, play doh, fuse beads, etc. beautiful pieces of art. I am glad to know that Mattie had experiences with people who recognized and learned Mattie's interests. After all treatment & diversion through psychosocial support is about the individual child not the program.
The Moon has become important to me because of Mattie. I watch on clear nights for it and always think of Mattie Moon.

I am glad to know the security Sunny is finding with you & Peter. Although, your walks with him seem different because he has figured out that he can lead you!

While eating our dinner, we had a visit from one of the hummingbirds from next door. He came up to the screen, fluttered looking in at us for a few seconds, before flying away to a tree. It felt like we had eye contact. Quite unusual.

I hope those young women who worked with Mattie & other children do realize the art that the children do, does become a legacy for the parents. It is a tangible gift forever from their child. Just like photos, all those pieces tell a story of a life that ended too soon!