Tonight's picture was taken in July of 2007. That day we took Mattie to Roosevelt Island. A place we visited practically every weekend. Right from the moment Mattie was born, he did better not being confined and preferred the sounds of nature and fresh air. I wasn't a big nature person until Mattie came into my life. However, thanks to him, I now prefer being outside and I carry on Mattie's love for trees, plants, animals, and long walks!
Quote of the day: Today's coronavirus update from Johns Hopkins.
- Number of people diagnosed with the virus: 34,217,658
- Number of people who died from the virus: 609,823
Today was my first day in over a month where I haven't gone to the house! It felt wonderful. The back and forth and managing all these people has become super stressful. Especially since I have a contentious relationship with the painters and their manager. The manager is a 20 something with an attitude, who likes to give me lectures. I am in no mood for lectures about my own house.
I tend to channel stress and anxiety inward. My latest habit is biting my tongue. I bit my tongue so hard that it hurts to swallow, eat, and talk. Ironically when I am home in DC, I don't bite my tongue, but as soon as I step foot in that house, the anxiety and stress take over. Honestly just trying to renovate and deal with painters, electricians, HVAC people, plumbers, tile floor people, and wood floor people, is more than I can handle. The notion of turning my attention to disassembling our DC home, and sorting through things to either donate or throw away is something I can't even wrap my head around.
Our DC home has a Mattie room. It was the room we brought him home from the hospital in 2002 and where he kept his things for seven years of his life. After Mattie died, I eventually transformed the room to my office and guest room. Yet Mattie's things still surround me. Certainly many of his things will come with us to the house, but none of our rooms will ever be Mattie's room.
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