A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



March 3, 2024

Sunday, March 3, 2024

Sunday, March 3, 2024

Tonight's picture was taken in March of 2009. Mattie was getting admitted to the hospital and was waiting in the outpatient clinic until a bed was available upstairs in the unit. Mattie had a request while waiting for a big pretzel. I truthfully had no idea where this request came from, as Mattie typically wasn't a pretzel fan. Thanks to the amazing community support we had, Team Mattie activated and within a short period of time, a pretzel showed up in front of Mattie. I can't tell you how grateful I will always be to Team Mattie, because when I was trapped in the hospital, I was unable to leave Mattie's bedside to grant his requests. Clearly our Team always had us covered. 


Quote of the day: You do not own a dog. You have a dog. And the dog has you. ~ Chelsea Handler


Within our neighborhood is a wonderful woods walking trail. It is the perfect trail for me because it lines the community and I can't get lost. Trust me, this is important, as I have a very poor sense of direction. 

Sunny absolutely loved walking in the woods and I absolutely loved watching him take in all the sights and sounds around us. It was a special experience having a walking partner. Since Sunny died, I have yet to go on a walk. It just doesn't interest me. 









For the last month, I have been working on Mattie Miracle's Walk website. I am thankful to be connected to one of their tech people, who I have gotten to know over the years. Technology isn't my strong suit and truthfully it is very anxiety provoking to me to be managing everything in my life alone. However, as of this afternoon, I made the website go live. I will still be testing it and tweaking it over the next week, but I am proud to have gotten this far. 

Later today, I took my parents out to brunch. We go to the same restaurant every Sunday. Everyone there practically knows us! So much so, that several servers and managers come over weekly and chat with us. In fact, today two managers sat with us and we got to hear about some of the issues and problems they are facing. I would like to say this is unusual, but even when I was a child, people  felt comfortable talking to me. Some may say this is my gift. Perhaps, but I think the greatest gift we can give to people in our lives, is to truly listen, to be truly present, and not to judge the content being expressed. In any case, even within the few short minutes I spoke to these two individuals, they commented that they felt so much better after our interaction. My life is a mess and my future is very uncertain, but despite my own horrors, I try not to let this affect how I treat and interact with others. 

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