A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



July 18, 2014

Friday, July 18, 2014

Friday, July 18, 2014

Tonight's picture was taken in July of 2008. Literally two weeks before Mattie was diagnosed with cancer. Rather ironic in a way, because to me, Mattie looks like the picture of health. Yet there are many people who are diagnosed with cancer, who I have heard also felt fine right before they were diagnosed. That notion is frightening to me. That weekend we took Mattie for a walk on Roosevelt Island. As was typical, Mattie found a branch along his walk and claimed it. He most likely took it home with him that day and added it to his stick collection. Do notice the orange shirt. Mattie gravitated to the colors, orange and red. They were bright, bold, and strong which he loved, and these are colors which represent his Foundation today. 


Quote of the day: Courage does not always roar. Sometimes it is a quiet voice at the end of the day, saying, 'I will try again tomorrow.' ~ Mary Anne Radmacher

I spent a good chunk of the day by the computer and at this point in time, my computer and I have a LOVE/HATE relationship with each other! My eyes hurt, as well as my head. But most of all I am simply tired. More sheer exhaustion than anything else. I came into this project exhausted. I can tell my level of exhaustion, because as I am writing, I can't follow my train of thinking or the words I am stringing together. Which is very unusual for me. I typically do not have trouble concentrating. 

Therefore as it is 9pm, I am having the courage as tonight's quote implies to say that I will try again tomorrow. I am backing off of the computer and going to clear my mind. 

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