Tuesday, July 14, 2015 -- Mattie died 305 week ago today.
Tonight's picture was taken in July of 2009. Mattie was in the physical therapy clinic working with Anna and Brandon (Mattie's big buddy). Brandon came to join us because he understood that Mattie needed a lot of encouragement and support to participate in therapy. In fact, when Brandon was inpatient battling cancer, he would try to assist Mattie too whenever he felt up to it. To me this photo captures friendship. It reminds me a bit of an oreo cookie, and Mattie was the filling inside and his friends were the cookie, supporting him from both sides..... truly trying to motivate him to walk despite the fact they knew it was painful and how much he feared falling.
Quote of the day: A cardinal is a representative of a loved one who has passed. When you see one, it means they are visiting you. They usually show up when you most need them or miss them. They also make an appearance during times of celebration as well as despair to let you know they will always be with you. ~ Unknown Author
Though I did not take this stunning photo of this cardinal today, this is in essence what I saw through Mattie's window today. Staring at me while I was working on the computer. I literally was typing away and then all of a sudden a bird flew in and perched on the window sill. It was a cardinal in all his glory.
I remember first hearing the legend of the cardinal from Tricia, Mattie's favorite HEM/ONC nurse. Tricia told me that when I see a cardinal, it is like getting a visit from Mattie. That it is nature's way of letting me know that he is always with me. Recently Jey, Mattie's CT tech transporter at the Hospital also told me about the beauty of birds and how their singing each day is something that so many of us take for granted yet, each morning no matter what the weather brings, the birds are out their chirping away. These birds are a constant and in a way he told me he likes to think of them as keeping the memories of all of our loved ones alive. They are singing about each one of them. I loved that visual, and since I love feeding the birds, we are guaranteed to have very lively bird chatter in our complex throughout the year. I have to say before we started feeding the
birds with our feeders, the only thing the city attracted was pigeons and squirrels. Now we have all sorts of birds here such as cardinals, blue jays, grackles, red headed finches (pictured on the left), gold finches (pictured on the right), sparrows, and we even saw a cat bird on Saturday. On occasion we even have hummingbirds stopping by on our hummingbird feeders. Needless to say, we I see all these glorious sights, I can't help but pause and think of Mattie. I am not sure prior to Mattie getting cancer and dying, I would have even paused and given nature so much time and attention. But nature helps me feel connected to my son.
Tonight's picture was taken in July of 2009. Mattie was in the physical therapy clinic working with Anna and Brandon (Mattie's big buddy). Brandon came to join us because he understood that Mattie needed a lot of encouragement and support to participate in therapy. In fact, when Brandon was inpatient battling cancer, he would try to assist Mattie too whenever he felt up to it. To me this photo captures friendship. It reminds me a bit of an oreo cookie, and Mattie was the filling inside and his friends were the cookie, supporting him from both sides..... truly trying to motivate him to walk despite the fact they knew it was painful and how much he feared falling.
Quote of the day: A cardinal is a representative of a loved one who has passed. When you see one, it means they are visiting you. They usually show up when you most need them or miss them. They also make an appearance during times of celebration as well as despair to let you know they will always be with you. ~ Unknown Author
Though I did not take this stunning photo of this cardinal today, this is in essence what I saw through Mattie's window today. Staring at me while I was working on the computer. I literally was typing away and then all of a sudden a bird flew in and perched on the window sill. It was a cardinal in all his glory.
I remember first hearing the legend of the cardinal from Tricia, Mattie's favorite HEM/ONC nurse. Tricia told me that when I see a cardinal, it is like getting a visit from Mattie. That it is nature's way of letting me know that he is always with me. Recently Jey, Mattie's CT tech transporter at the Hospital also told me about the beauty of birds and how their singing each day is something that so many of us take for granted yet, each morning no matter what the weather brings, the birds are out their chirping away. These birds are a constant and in a way he told me he likes to think of them as keeping the memories of all of our loved ones alive. They are singing about each one of them. I loved that visual, and since I love feeding the birds, we are guaranteed to have very lively bird chatter in our complex throughout the year. I have to say before we started feeding the
birds with our feeders, the only thing the city attracted was pigeons and squirrels. Now we have all sorts of birds here such as cardinals, blue jays, grackles, red headed finches (pictured on the left), gold finches (pictured on the right), sparrows, and we even saw a cat bird on Saturday. On occasion we even have hummingbirds stopping by on our hummingbird feeders. Needless to say, we I see all these glorious sights, I can't help but pause and think of Mattie. I am not sure prior to Mattie getting cancer and dying, I would have even paused and given nature so much time and attention. But nature helps me feel connected to my son.
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