Mattie Miracle 9th Annual Walk & Family Festival -- Raised over $97,000

Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation Promotional Video

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to us that you take the time to write to us and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful to us and help support us through very challenging times. To you we are forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically stop writing on September 9, 2010. However, at the moment, I feel like our journey with grief still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with us, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.

As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki and Peter

The Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation celebrates its 7th anniversary!

The Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation was created in the honor of Mattie.

We are a 501(c)(3) Public Charity. We are dedicated to increasing childhood cancer awareness, education, advocacy, research and psychosocial support services to children, their families and medical personnel. Children and their families will be supported throughout the cancer treatment journey, to ensure access to quality psychosocial and mental health care, and to enable children to cope with cancer so they can lead happy and productive lives. Please visit the website at: and take some time to explore the site.

We have only gotten this far because of people like yourself, who have supported us through thick and thin. So thank you for your continued support and caring, and remember:

.... Let's Make the Miracle Happen and Stomp Out Childhood Cancer!

A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Random Shots of Mattie, Family and Friends

May 2, 2016

Monday, May 2, 2016

Monday, May 2, 2016

Tonight's picture was taken in April of 2008. Mattie was learning to play soccer and had practices during the week and games on Saturdays. I am not sure soccer was really Mattie's thing but he wanted to go and enjoyed the camaraderie  and being outside. While Mattie was practicing, I was ALWAYS there observing. Usually grading papers at the same time and sitting in a blue fold-able sports chair. A chair he insisted Peter buy for me when they went shopping together.  

Quote of the day: Sometimes people don't want to look back because they are afraid of facing the truth. But sometimes, facing the truth we're afraid of is what makes us who we're really supposed to be. Nancy J. Cavanaugh

I ran many chores today. For me it is like to beat the clock. Trying to get everything done for the Walk on May 15th. In the midst of running around, I donated two items which have been in my trunk for over a decade. Mattie's stroller and the soccer game chair I mentioned above. 

Clearly I know Mattie died and I won't be using these things, but a part of me just couldn't get rid of these items. To some extent tangible items become imperative to keep memories alive. Also on some ridiculous level I thought Mattie may need these things and therefore it was important I hold onto them. I really believe my mind plays tricks on me because I rationally know Mattie died and isn't coming back, and yet on another level he is ever present. 

So to me donating these items was an end of an era. Yet there are things of Mattie's still in my car, such as his rubber lizards and beautiful beaded flower he made me which hangs on my rear view mirror. These will always remain with my car. 

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