Monday, February 27, 2012

Monday, February 27, 2012

Tonight's picture was taken in July of 2002, when Mattie was three months old. I have been posting a series of early pictures of Mattie on the blog to illustrate his level of alertness, inquistiveness, and his fascination with the world around him. Mattie was born "ON" and wanted to be a part of the action and made sure he got attention from those around him!


Quote of the day: They say a person needs just three things to be truly happy in this world: Someone to love, something to do, and something to hope for. ~ Tom Bodett


I spent a good portion of the day today outside of our home, which was a good thing for me. I met my friend Mary for tea and we had a nice time chatting, catching up, and also talking logistics for the Foundation's symposium. Mary is a fellow preschool mom, we met each other while Mattie was in school. However, in addition to being my friend, Mary is also a professional event and conference planner. So today we sat down and discussed the Symposium, the ordering of food, the set up of the room, and other tidbits that someone in the trade would know. So it was a very productive meeting on many fronts.

After meeting Mary, I literally did not even move more than a couple of feet, because then I met up with Ann for lunch. It is very easy for me to shut others out when I am feeling scared, uncertain, and vulnerable. So in a way, being out and about made me feel a part of something.

When I got home this afternoon, I ventured out on our deck and began cleaning it up. Since we feed the birds in feeders over the winter, I have sunflower seed shells and other seed particles in every which direction on the deck. Since the weather was lovely, I spent some time outside cleaning, getting fresh air, and slowly getting ready for spring. Peter and I like spring because we spend time outside planting in our garden and somehow that is therapeutic.

However as the evening set in, I sat down with Peter to discuss the pros and cons of the biopsy I have scheduled for Friday. As a recap, I have two doctors not recommending this procedure and one who says it can be done. There are other issues associated with the procedure as well that make me uncertain about it, so I landed up typing up all the questions I have to pose to the doctor before Friday. Right now it is the not knowing what I am doing that I find particularly unsettling.