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Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



A Remembrance Video of Mattie

August 4, 2014

Monday, August 4, 2014


Monday, August 4, 2014

Tonight's picture was taken on July 31 of 2009. Mattie was in the oncology clinic of Georgetown Hospital. Behind him was his buddy, Maya! Maya was the only friend close to his age that he related to at the hospital, all the rest of his buddies were much older than he was! Sitting right next to Mattie was Anna, Mattie's physical therapist. Anna tried all sorts of activities and games to get Mattie to use his limbs. Especially his right leg which was very weak and had atrophied. I am showing you this photo tonight because in a way, despite fighting cancer, even we were ignorant at that very moment in time. For only six days after this photo was taken (on August 5th) did we learn that Mattie's cancer had  metastasized  throughout his body. Amazing how your life can change in just a matter of days.  


Quote of the day: There are three needs of the griever: to find the words for the loss, to say the words aloud and to know that they have been heard. ~ Victoria Alexander


I have been attached to a computer today and generated three more pages to this chapter I am writing! Somehow that feels like I wrote a saga today. It is getting a section started that is always the hardiest for me. But I did it! So I am a bit brain dead this evening. My friend Charlie sent me tonight's quote and as soon as I read it, I LOVED it! It is hard to imagine that another August 5th is fast approaching. A day Peter and I will never forget. I remember sitting in the hospital's rose garden with Mattie and dealing with the news of Mattie's terminal diagnosis. I will share that story with you tomorrow evening. For now I am signing off for the day! I couldn't agree more with Alexander's quote..... the griever definitely needs to find the words for loss and to know that one's message is being heard and I would even add understood!

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