Tonight's picture was taken in July of 2007. Mattie was five years old and we were very innocent then.... childhood cancer was not even on our radar scope. That weekend, like so many, we took Mattie for a walk on Roosevelt Island. Mattie loved going to the Island, it was peaceful, there was always something to see, and Mattie could take a fallen branch or rock home with him to add to his collection!
Quote of the day: The anniversary date of a loved one's death is particularly significant. You will have done something you thought was impossible a few months earlier. You will have survived an entire year without someone who was as important to you as life itself. ~ Bob Diets
Tonight's quote is quite interesting. There is some truth to it naturally, but surviving another year without your child provides a certain level of bittersweet feelings and great sadness. This July 23, will mark the seventh anniversary of Mattie's diagnosis with cancer. This is actually a hard number to swallow because this is the exact amount of time that Mattie was alive and present in our lives. It is hard to accept that this diagnosis anniversary equates to the amount of time that Mattie was physically present on this earth. As time moves on, these anniversary numbers will only get bigger, but the amount of time we had with Mattie will seem even shorter than it already felt. Which is why in many ways for parents who lose a child, time doesn't heal all wounds. In a way, time exacerbates the loss.
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