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Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



A Remembrance Video of Mattie

May 16, 2011

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Tonight's picture was taken in September of 2007. This was Mattie's first day of kindergarten. Before we jumped into the car to head to school, I wanted to capture that moment in time. It was an exciting and at the same time daunting day. I did not like giving up control when Mattie was involved, and yet I knew he had to go to school and grow and develop. This was the start of a wonderful year for Mattie, but in my wildest imagination I would never have guessed we would only have one year at St. Stephen's and St. Agnes School.

Quote of the day: Mourning is not the end of the relationship. We meet their absence everywhere. ~ Unknown

Today felt like I was living in the land of the lost. I spent the entire day at home, and basically glued to the computer. My first task I worked on was taking a 30 minute script and trying to cut it down to 10 minutes. That may sound like an easy task, but it WASN'T. It actually took me over eight hours to do this, and I timed myself many times, until I finally got it down to 11 minutes. Wow! The sad part is the original script I wrote for the medical grand rounds was powerful and full of substance. It is hard to deliver anything really meaningful in 10 minutes. So hopefully I was successful with my message.

While I was working on this, Peter was running around accomplishing Walk tasks. In the midst of this, he also bought more plants for me and as you can see the geraniums he purchased are quite bold and happy.



















Though I never left the house today, Peter went outside and took pictures of our bird visitors. I love my red headed finch family, and Peter captured the female and male pair so well!













The birds just love Peter's garden in the common's area, and they were all hanging out there watching him garden today. I told Peter I would love to add a bird bath and bird feeder to this area, because I believe it would attract even more of a bird following than we currently have.

After a full day of script writing and Walk tasks, I finally took a break and had dinner outside on our deck. With both Mattie foundations going in the background, our beautiful plants, and the garden string lights I bought, the whole deck area reminds me of a secret garden. It was the only moment of peace I had the entire day!

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