Wednesday, November 28, 2012Tonight's picture was taken in November of 2002. Mattie was seven months old and was sitting in his favorite thing... "tot wheels." Or in essence his walker. When Mattie was a baby there was a great deal of controversy over putting a child in a walker. The thinking was this would prevent the child from building the necessary muscles to learn to walk independently. It is true Mattie was a late walker, but I have no regrets over him using this walker. This walker gave Mattie freedom, control, and empowered him to move independently. All the things he loved and craved. What always amazed me was that Mattie could maneuver tot wheels around our home, near tight corners, easily and with great grace.
Quote of the day: Grief is like the ocean; it comes on waves ebbing and flowing. Sometimes the water is calm, and sometimes it is overwhelming. All we can do is learn to swim. ~ Vicki Harrison
I am slowly coming out of the fog I have been living under the past two days. Nonetheless, I still have a pervasive headache and at times it is hard to keep my eyes open. I am trying to avoid spending too much time at the computer, which is a major problem considering our Foundation's November newsletter needs to go out at the end of the week. Which means many hours in front of the computer.
Because I am still not functioning fully, I am cutting tonight's posting short again. There were many highs and lows to my day today, and certainly lows somehow further trigger reflections on the loss and pain within our lives and perhaps in the world in general. The loss of Mattie is something that we are forced to accept but as Peter says, it doesn't get any easier to cope with over time. I am beginning to see Christmas all around me, and these sights and sounds bring absolutely no joy. In fact they impact my mood in a negative way and further compound my headaches.
I am signing off in hopes that tomorrow is a better day.
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