Tonight's picture was taken on April 8, 2002. Mattie was literally four days old and we were taking him home from the hospital. When you look at him in this photo, he looks like he was sleeping and out cold, but notice his left hand was up and touching his head and hat. Mattie was never truly out cold! Learning to sleep came much later in his life.
Quote of the day: But in a home where grief is fresh and patience has long worn thin, making it through another day is often heroic in itself. ~ Melanie Bennett
I had a seven hour long licensure board meeting today. We worked intensely as a group for this entire time, had to listen to people who came to talk with us, and reviewed countless applications. On top of all of this we went without eating this whole time, which is a recipe for disaster. In any case, between some of the dynamics at the meeting and the week that I had, I was just ready to snap a few heads off. There are certain behaviors in people that set me off and the top two are insensitive treatment of me and the other is trying to regulate my thoughts and how I act. If you try to combine the two, the reaction out of me will be volatile, and this is where I was at today in the meeting. I also do not care for people who want things to be swept under the rug in order for everything to be calm, peaceful, and happy. Especially if I see an injustice going on all around me. I tend to speak up for change and for those who can't speak up for themselves. In any case, after a full seven hours of tension and a week of worry over my scan, I am virtually spent on all levels.... so I am signing off for today.
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