A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



July 4, 2021

Sunday, July 4, 2021

Sunday, July 4, 2021

Tonight's picture was taken on July 4th of 2008. Literally weeks before Mattie was diagnosed with cancer. It is still hard to believe, as he looked like the picture of health here. That July 4th, my parents were visiting and we all went to the DC Aquatic Gardens. A place that Mattie loved and we wanted to introduce it to my parents. The special part about July at the Gardens are the blooming of the incredible lotuses! 





Quote of the day: Today's coronavirus update from Johns Hopkins.

  • Number of people diagnosed with the virus: 33,716,377
  • Number of people who died from the virus: 605,519


I had a horrible night of sleep last night. I woke up at 3am, with an incredible headache and nausea. Typically I try not to move around at night, because it stirs the cat and dog, and then there is no peace. But I had no choice, as I needed migraine medication asap. About an hour later, I got back to sleep, but I woke up feeling absolutely depleted. 

We did go to the house today, but unlike Peter, the only thing I did was walk Sunny. Peter is making great progress at weeding! You can see him and the front bed of bushes. However, prior to Peter weeding, you couldn't see anything other than green weeds. The weeds in Oakton are huge and I can see it will be a concerted effort to keep them at bay. 

It is hard to believe that today is July 4th. I feel like I am living in a vacuum, with each day being just like the day before. One minute it was May, and I was working on the Foundation Walk, and the next minute it is July. June was a blur, and I can see July won't be much better. Given how I was feeling today, I knew I had to slow it down, otherwise, I won't be able to function, much less manage what's going on at the house or move. For the last 25 years, we literally could walk out of our home in DC and see the National Capital's firework show. We have been in a remarkable location and tonight I am very cognizant that this will be our last time we will see the fireworks in DC. Because in the future, commuting in will not be possible! Therefore, I am going to soak in the moment and capture the sights and sounds in both my iphone and mind. 

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