Tonight's picture was taken in August of 2009. Mattie was struggling and despite his terminal status, the hospital had him working on breathing exercises. That of course did not interest him until Peter turned it into a game. Peter had one machine and Mattie had his flutter valve. The dueling Browns!
Quote of the day: We are shaped and fashioned by what we love. ~ Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
When I woke up this morning, I saw these photos! Peter sent me them to me by text message. I call this ANGELIC SUNNY!
Sunny loves his front yard time off leash in the morning. I think he looks so regal! The way Peter captured the sun's rays on Sunny is priceless to me.
This morning after getting my dad up and out the door, I drove my mom to physical therapy. Her therapist is lovely. Each time, Jenny asks my mom.... what did you do this week or what are you doing this weekend?
Unfortunately our life is not very diverse or stimulating. This shows up in our answers. It is very hard describing our life to others, particularly those who don't live with a home bound person.
In any case, my mom told Jenny that she can't do anything she likes to do here. That led to the conversation.... what do you like to do? I know exactly what my mom likes to do (or DID do)! It was walking, traveling, and dancing class. The problem of course is my mom doesn't have the insight to know that she physically can't do these activities anymore independently. This is a hard reality that I feel I walk each day, as I want her to be safe, yet I try NOT to squelch her hope. But I have to be the parent on duty here and I think the therapist could see the struggles I face, as she made suggestions to me mom, like joining a senior center and participating in activities, and all of them were met with a big NO! I know this NO all too well, as I have been dealing with it for nine months, and I have yet to figure out what my mom wants to do.
I realize it is her disease and over time, I have backed off, because she no longer can do the things she once was able to. I know this reality and slowly she is facing this. Needless to say this is a very depressing reality each day. After therapy, I took her out for a tea latte and a trip to the Hallmark store. That improved both of our moods! I am a big Hallmark fan, store and channel. To me when I step into Hallmark, I don't have to face reality, but instead can see pretty and happy things, which is very needed on a weekly basis.
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