Tonight's picture was taken in May of 2009, around Mother's Day. Mattie worked with Jenny and Jessie (his art therapists) to create this present for me. Mattie actually used a potter's wheel to create the red vase, he glazed it, and then hand crafted the tissue paper flowers. I was asked to wait in Mattie's room that day, while Jenny and my mom wheeled Mattie into the room to surprise me with this gift. This gift was very special then, and it remains very special to me since it is the last mother's day gift I will ever receive from Mattie. This vase and its flowers remain in my living room, and each time I see them, it reminds me of this day captured in this photo. Thank goodness Mattie was so prolific and creative in the Hospital, because all his things are what I now turn to as reminders of his presence in my life.
Quote of the day: Making a decision to have a child--it's momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body. ~ Elizabeth Stone
It is hard to imagine that this is the third Mother's Day I have spent without Mattie. It seems almost impossible to wrap my thoughts around this concept. In some ways I am so exhausted and focused on planning the Foundation's Walk, that I do not have the emotional energy to process Mother's Day. Two of my friends invited me out today, to share the day with them. But I decided instead to keep on working and to run chores with Peter. However, as I promised my readers earlier in the week, I want to share some pictures of my newly created Mattie wall with you. I have always wanted to create this wall, and Peter made this possible. He ordered the frames and all the photos as my Mother's Day present and for two weekends straight, we have been working on the layout of this composition.
The second message if from Toni, Brandon's (Mattie's big buddy) mom. Toni wrote, "Just wanted to wish you a Happy Mother's day! Mattie would be so PROUD of his parents! Thank you for helping our kids!"
The third message is from my friend Heidi. Heidi wrote, "I am thinking of you today. You will always be a mother to your little precious angel Mattie and to all the other children you are helping with the Mattie Miracle Foundation. You are truly an inspiration to me for your kindness, empathy, charity and love for others. I am blessed to have you in my life I hope you have a beautiful day."
The fourth message is from one of the wonderful psycho-oncologists I have had the pleasure of getting to know from our March Symposium. Lori wrote, "I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you today. These Hallmark days can be so ridiculously difficult. I am so glad that your mom is still with you - she sure did an amazing job with you! I also hope you feel really pleased for ALL that you have accomplished this year alone for Mattie. You continue to inspire me daily. Looking forward to our future work and collaborations and know you deserve to feel exceptionally proud today."
The final message is from my friend, Tamra. Tamra wrote, "Today is the Sunday set aside for Mother's Day. Upon reflection of this day, I think about you and how our friendship would not have begun because of our children..you and I as Mothers. In the short but remarkable life of Mattie, we shared hope and love for your marvelous boy. As a mother, you have been so brave and generous in celebrating all children and find the reservoir to continue to give hope for children and their families who face uncertain journeys. You are a remarkable women and mother. In gratitude and love."