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Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



A Remembrance Video of Mattie

May 15, 2012

Tuesday, May 15th, 2012

Tuesday, May 15th, 2012

"Healthy citizens are the greatest asset any country can have." ~ Winston Churchill

To all our devoted blog readers and supporters, this is Peter, as I am filling in for Vicki tonight.  Vicki is not feeling well, so she asked me to put up a simple posting and tell everyone she will be back tomorrow.  I think it's a combination of working too hard, stress and too much to do that has knocked her back tonight, so in preparation for this weekend's activities she is taking a night off.  Again, my apologies for the shortened blog, but Vicki will be back tomorrow not to fear! 

The picture above was taken in February 2009, and you can tell it was taken by me (given Mattie's look).  The picture was taken after midnight on that day as Mattie and I had worked most of the afternoon and into the evening, on assembling the house, which today, is still assembled and stands in our living room as one of the few physical reminders that we had a son, and another life and so much hope and promise at some point.   Mattie and I spent so many hours filling in the time between treatments, medications, pump resets and tests, by just trying to be normal and by doing normal father-son things.  I unfortunately, no longer have those chances to do the normal things any more.  I miss those days, I miss my buddy, and I miss just being a daddy to someone so very special.

The good news is that Vicki is doing better tonight but she needs a well deserved break, but do not fear, she will be back, in force, tomorrow to continue the story.  Thank you for coming to the blog, for reading, for continuing to come back, and for caring.... it means more than you know.

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