Mattie Miracle 9th Annual Walk & Family Festival -- Raised over $97,000

Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation Promotional Video

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to us that you take the time to write to us and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful to us and help support us through very challenging times. To you we are forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically stop writing on September 9, 2010. However, at the moment, I feel like our journey with grief still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with us, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.

As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki and Peter

The Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation celebrates its 7th anniversary!

The Mattie Miracle Cancer Foundation was created in the honor of Mattie.

We are a 501(c)(3) Public Charity. We are dedicated to increasing childhood cancer awareness, education, advocacy, research and psychosocial support services to children, their families and medical personnel. Children and their families will be supported throughout the cancer treatment journey, to ensure access to quality psychosocial and mental health care, and to enable children to cope with cancer so they can lead happy and productive lives. Please visit the website at: and take some time to explore the site.

We have only gotten this far because of people like yourself, who have supported us through thick and thin. So thank you for your continued support and caring, and remember:

.... Let's Make the Miracle Happen and Stomp Out Childhood Cancer!

A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Random Shots of Mattie, Family and Friends

July 19, 2016

Tuesday, July 19, 2016

Tuesday, July 19, 2016 -- Mattie died 357 weeks ago today. 

Tonight's picture was taken in August of 2005. Do not ask me what happened to my electronic files from August of 2005. All I know is I have NO photos from that month and year. So today I turned to our on-line shutterfly account and was able to download several photos! It is like seeing photos for the first time. Which is special! I can remember these moments in time, but was upset that I had no record of them until now. This photo was taken in Los Angeles. We went out that summer to visit my parents. Though Mattie was cautious around water, Peter started to introduce Mattie to their pool. Naturally whatever Mattie was doing, I was usually photographing it! Never realizing what these photos would mean to us as the years went by. 

Quote of the day: Blessed is he who expects nothing, for he shall never be disappointed. Alexander Pope

There is a great deal of truth in Pope's quote tonight. We live each day with some sort of expectation. Expectation perhaps of what you will accomplish at work, expectations for the future, expectations for our spouse, family, and friends. Yet having expectations is a double edged sword, because what we may want and need doesn't always match up with the actual interaction or result. Then what? I am quite certain that the crux to many problems we face centers around expectations. Yet how do we go through life without having expectations for those in our lives? We aren't machines with no emotional responsibilities and needs. 

Time and time again, I hear about disappointments and the severing of friendships after a mom's child dies from cancer. Childhood cancer is one of those topics that divide people and sends them running in the other direction. Which is sad, because friendships are truly what is needed the most to cope and survive through loss. Soon after Mattie died, I lost a very close friend of mine. A friend I knew for 15 years. She severed our relationship because she said, Mattie's cancer and death were making her physically sick! I may have had the expectation that we would always be friends and she would want to remain a part of my life after such a tragedy. But I was WRONG! 

I used to be a person who had expectations for others and the world around me. However, after Mattie's cancer, I see the world as it is. NOT with rose colored glasses. I have learned not to have expectations for anything or anyone, because the only one I can have expectations for is myself. I am sure that sounds cynical, but it is where I am at. 

Tomorrow, Mattie Miracle's strategic planning meeting begins. We have invited our core psychosocial researchers to DC, to plot out our the next phase of our Standards project.... Implementation! So it will be a busy two days for us!

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