Sunday, June 19, 2022

Sunday, June 19, 2022

Tonight's picture was taken on Father's Day of 2007. Mattie was 5 years old and that day we had an outing on a DC Boat tour. This was something none of us ever did before, and I thought Mattie would like the concept of a bus transforming into a boat. It was a fun way to see Washington, DC. Mattie particularly liked the duck bill whistles they gave all the passengers. It was actually not the best day for Mattie. After the tour was over, he was agitated and really did not want to go out to lunch. We did go, but I remember not staying long. Of course a year later Mattie was diagnosed with cancer. So upon reflection, I always wondered if Mattie's agitation and moodiness at times were connected to not feeling well. I will never know the answer to this, but I do know that we made the most of all outings and adventures together...... and of course Peter is the best dad.

Quote of the day: They say time heals all wounds, but that presumes the source of the grief is finite. ~ Cassandra Clare

The highlight of my day today was taking Sunny for a walk in our neighborhood. Where we live gives me access to wonderful nature trails. When Sunny first moved here, his energy level was a lot better. Now I have to stop often to give him breaks with water. The chemo is knocking him out on top of his age. The good news however, is that I don't see blood in Sunny's urine. 

I haven't walked Sunny since May. This is just awful, as this was part of our daily routine for the 6 years I have had him. Now most days I don't know if I am coming or going. Fortunately Sunny has a backyard that he loves, but I miss our walks and getting outside. He was my number one reason to get out in all kinds of weather and interact with the world. 

This was one of our water breaks. In the woods there is a lovely bench. Sunny is conditioned now to stop at this bench for some water. 

It was quite a night for us! At 2am, Sunny climbed the steps and came into our bedroom. I listened in hopes he would settle down, but he did not. So I got up and could tell immediately that he wanted to go outside. I woke Peter up and we took Sunny into the backyard with a flashlight. Luckily we did as the chemo gave him diarrhea. What a smart boy to wake me up! But we did not go back to sleep until 4am and then of course I have to get up early for my parents. So I am the walking wounded today. 

My happy boy!