A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



June 7, 2013

Friday, June 7, 2013

Friday, June 7, 2013

Tonight's picture was taken in June of 2008. A month before Mattie was diagnosed with cancer. That weekend we took Mattie to Roosevelt Island with his remote controlled boat. As you can see, both Peter and Mattie took off their shoes and got in the water with the boat. What you may not realize though is that the backdrop of this photo is Georgetown. The elevated highway is what we took to drive to the Hospital. To me this photo almost foreshadowed what was to come a month later.





Quote of the day: A great wind is blowing, and that gives you either
imagination or a headache.
~ Catherine the Great



In the true words of Catherine the Great, the rain and winds of our tropical storm have given me a headache! I am being funny, because in my case, I do not think the WINDS or weather have anything to do with how I am feeling. It doesn't take much for a wild headache to overtake me and so therefore I was out of commission this afternoon. I wasn't feeling well this morning either, but I promised to visit my friend Mary, who lives in an assisted living facility, and talk with her caregiver about entering nursing school. Though nursing isn't my professional background, advising students is. I have become smart in this young lady's particular academic situation and have reviewed all her school's requirements as well as went with her to meet with several of her advisers this past year. So if people I interact with are motivated to get their lives on track and need moral support, I do try to help if asked.

Perhaps it is my personality, I am not sure. Though if you ask my lifetime friend Karen about my demeanor, she most likely will tell you I am a "very driven" person. I rarely settle for just good enough and I am driven by internal motivation not external ones. Which maybe why my head is in overdrive now with the Foundation regarding our next steps.  I sometimes pause and say I am not doing enough! Which of course is insane especially if I made a list of all the things I am managing. When I told my mom I had a headache today, her response came through loud and clear through e-mail. She feels after what I just planned for the Foundation, most people would not only have a headache but would be out of commission. It takes my mom to put things into context for me!!!

I am signing off for the evening. Peter heads to Boston for a few days starting tomorrow. So a weekend of rain, a headache, and no Peter should make for a very interesting mix.

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