Thursday, June 6, 2013

Thursday, June 6, 2013

Tonight's picture was taken on May 30th of 2008. It was Mattie's last day of kindergarten. Mattie was somewhat annoyed with me that I asked to take a photo of him before we left our home for school that day. Nonetheless, he complied, which was why I got that glazed, false Mattie smile. The smile that always told me..... I'm annoyed with you, but I will entertain your request! I am happy that I captured this moment in time regardless of the smile, because Peter and I only got one chance at the last day of school with Mattie! 




Quote of the day: You cannot control what happens to you, but you can control your attitude toward what happens to you, and in that, you will be mastering change rather than allowing it to master you. ~ Brian Tracy


Brian Tracy's quote resonates with me this week! I most certainly can't control that my life has changed, that we lost Mattie to cancer, and the impact all of this has upon me during the summer months. When Mattie were alive, during the summer....... I was entertainment coordinator, full-time playmate, chauffeur, maid, and the list went on. An all familiar list to any mom! My summers now look quite different, they can be very isolating, especially as those around me are busy with so many activities. Isolation and feeling different are not a great combination to sit with, especially after coming off of a whirlwind of planning for the Foundation Walk. I am not sure which is worse, feeling frenetic or feeling lost. The verdict is out!

But like Tracy's quote points out, the only thing I can control is my attitude. So to change my mood, I took myself out today to try a new tea house in my neighborhood. I walked around our area first and snapped some photos of the wonderful flowers I passed along the way. I then visited Paul (the name of the bistro), which is a French Family Bakery and Patisserie since 1889, and apparently it is an international company with bakeries in 20 different countries.

I should mention that on my way to Paul today, I had a run in with a beautiful yellow monarch butterfly. As if it was trying to purposefully say hello, yet as quickly as it came, that is how fast it disappeared. When the wait staff at Paul found out it was my first visit to their restaurant, they couldn't have been nicer. All I know is that in my neck of the woods, having access to a simple bistro like this is much needed where I live.

As the weekend approaches, I am coming up with a list of things I really want to focus upon and address. Mind you, I still haven't put away all our Walk materials. I have to manage this in stages, otherwise I do find it overwhelming. Since once I begin organizing a closet, to fit Foundation materials into it, it becomes a project which lands up causing me to sort, purge, and reorganize the whole closet. Naturally, I do focus upon the fact that we raised more money at this year's Walk than ever before, which of course ultimately enables us to continue to fund our local and national goals and objectives for the Foundation.