Tonight's picture was taken in May of 2007. During our trip to Lancaster, PA, we came across a large open field. With crops growing, but NOTHING else. Well nothing else but this rainbow thing on the ground. We stopped the car and got out to check on this ground cover. It turned out to be a trampoline. Mattie ran right onto it and started jumping all around. I had never seen such a trampoline, much less would have expected it in the middle of an open field for anyone to run and jump upon. Needless to say it made for a very memorable moment.
Quote of the day: We see things not as they are, but as we are. ~ H.M. Tomlinson
I know that I do see the world and everything in it based on how I am feeling. I do not corner the market on this, most of us are greatly influenced by what is happening to us or those around us, and this "as we are" can impact one's outlook, one's productivity, and one's ability to have hope for the future.
I had a slower day today, which was needed considering my pace yesterday. But I am very aware of the fact that how I am emotionally feeling is impacting how I am physically feeling. As summer approaches, the isolation I feel grows. I am very aware of children being off from school, families doing things together, and since this is a slower time of year for the Foundation, I feel these changes more profoundly. With the loss of Mattie, a sense of isolation does ensue, and it would be easier at times to shut down or off from others around me because I deem our lives as different. However, I try to continue to find that balance of being socially and emotionally engaged with the world. I am not always successful, and the irony is the more one separates one's self the worse one can feel. I don't feel like writing much tonight, but it is my hope that tomorrow is another day.