Wednesday, January 16, 2013Tonight's picture was taken in October of 2004. Peter and I took Mattie to a fall festival and apparently he snapped a photo of us while we were walking and checking things out. This whole scene caught my attention tonight. When I see moms holding their children's hands, it instantaneously brings me back to the times I used to hold Mattie's hands. Things you take for granted until you no longer have them. It is a hard reality to accept and I long for a moment to recapture that feeling again.
Quote of the day: There is something about the presence of a cat...that seems to take the bite out of being alone. ~ Louis Camuti
For weeks now my friend Tina and I have been brainstorming and working on a project. I will reveal the project tomorrow. It has absolutely nothing to do with cancer or the Foundation. This is more of a personal project. In any case, for us it has been an intense week of preparation. Tina and I are both detail oriented and we like to be creative. So putting us together results in a product that is something quite special and beautiful. Or at least this is our intention! I hope to share some pictures with you tomorrow.
Patches continues to hold her own but her illness and being up throughout the night are wearing on both of us. Somehow the stress of Patches being diagnosed with cancer, and not any kind of cancer, bone cancer, has been a real set back for us this January. I look at other people my age and somehow their lives seem SO full. They live in communities with other families, they are caring for their children, involved in their upbringing and school activities, and the list goes on. Yet for Peter and I, we have been dropped into a lifestyle that is typical for people 20 years older than us. I am not sure how we can come to grips with this, but one thing I am quite sure of, and that is it takes a lot of energy to remain focused on not being bitter, jealous, and resentful of others who have what we lost.
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