A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



March 1, 2014

Saturday, March 1, 2014

Saturday, March 1, 2014

Tonight's picture was taken in December of 2006. We took Mattie to Florida for New Year's. On our last day, we ventured to Flamingo Gardens, one of my favorite parks, outside of Butterfly World (also in Florida). We did a lot during our trip to Florida, but I did not want to head back home without taking Mattie back to Flamingo Gardens. This photo captures the last time we were there as a family. In a way this reminds me that you can't wait to do something, because the future isn't guaranteed. 


Quote of the day: I've helped people get rid of headaches by placing my hand on their forehead, and backaches by placing my hand on their back. It's a powerful example of love that really works. ~ Shelley Long


Maybe Shelley Long should come visit me, because I can't get rid of an absolutely horrible headache. I have had an intense headache now for weeks! Not to mention then battling on top of that the flu and then a sinus infection. It has been one thing after another and the whole picture is simply debilitating. I feel chronically ill now for almost a month. Some how feeling sick makes me sadder and more depressed. The fear being...... will this level of intense pain ever dissipate? 

Living life with chronic headaches is nothing new for me. This year marks the 12th year of daily chronic headaches, and though they aren't pleasant, I have found a way to work through them. When the headaches become extreme and migraine like, like today, then functioning is hard. Life seems much harder on days like today, and I envy those who don't get headaches much less migraines. So tonight's blog is short, with the hopes that tomorrow is a better day.

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