A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



May 30, 2020

Saturday, May 30, 2020

Saturday, May 30, 2020

Tonight's picture was taken on May 5, 2002. Mattie was one month old. I remember taking him out with his cousins. We sat and had ice cream outside and while in this shopping village, his cousins bought Mattie this cute bunny. It was a bean bag bunny and I absolutely loved Mattie's facial expression as he was trying to focus on the bunny and understand what we put before his eyes. Whenever I go to this shopping village now, or think of May 5th, I remember this moment in time.


Quote of the day: Today's coronavirus update from Johns Hopkins

  • number of people diagnosed with the virus: 1,769,776
  • number of people who died from the virus: 103,758



Last night was a first for us. We were invited to a virtual graduation party for my friend's daughter. It involved a parade of cars and a socially distancing gathering. I bought gold fans for the car and made signs acknowledging the graduate's schools (both undergraduate and where she is going for her master's degree). While decorating the car, my friend's neighbors were watching and got a kick out of what we were doing!

We brought Sunny with us! As we were driving passed my friends house we were honking the car's horn and causing a commotion. Literally every neighbor came out. Once they understood what we were doing, they joined in the fun. 

As one could possibly imagine, graduations are not easy for us. They are a reminder of what once again we are missing. In fact, Mattie's high school graduation would be this coming week. How does one come to terms with that? I am not sure!








I woke up this morning with a text message from my mom which alerted me that my dad fell and was rushed to the hospital last night in an ambulance. It is never good being carted away, but I have to say during COVID it is even worse, as caregivers and loved ones are not allowed in the hospital. But the paramedics did the right thing and I am glad they didn't take NO for an answer. As my dad did not want to go to the hospital. Yet they were correct, he has a bad urinary tract infection and needed emergency kidney stone removal today. It is our hope that now that the kidney stone has been removed that they can stabilize him. I want to make sure that all my readers know that in older adults, urinary tract infections can present with different symptoms, symptoms that are not common in younger adults. Such symptoms include confusion, frequent falls, lack of appetite, nausea, and strange behavior. 


One of the activities we did today was walk around Washington Harbor. This was a sight for sore eyes. Restaurants (outdoor dining) have opened in 
DC, Maryland and Virginia and people and boats were out and about. A sign of life and normalcy. 

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