A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



October 9, 2021

Saturday, October 9, 2021

Saturday, October 9, 2021

Tonight's picture was taken in October of 2008. Mattie was in the hospital recovering from his first limb salvaging surgery. He was in a wheelchair and we could hardly get clothes on him. Which was why his pajama top was draped over him. Yet Mattie was spirited enough to want potato chips and to pose for a photo. In fact, Mattie went through several food cravings. One was for potato chips, but not just any chip! It had to be Utz. I have no idea why, but I remember Peter looking for these chips at 3am one day. 




Quote of the day: Today's coronavirus update from Johns Hopkins.

  • Number of people diagnosed with the virus: 44,311,548
  • Number of people who died from the virus: 712,909


At 1am, I was awakened feeling horrible. I could feel nauseousness, I had the chills and literally my teeth were chattering. I knew I had to get up immediately and take Zofran for nausea and Advil for aches and fever. All these things enabled me to go back to bed, but unfortunately I have been out of commission all day. 

All of this is my reaction to taking Fosamax, for bone density. I had the same horrible reaction last Friday, and last weekend I couldn't move. The doctor felt this was a fluke and therefore told me to try it again. So I did, but after a repeat performance of last week, I am saying NO to Fosamax. I even wrote the doctor, who did not respond to me today. I honestly don't care what she says, I know that it isn't working for me and I can't go through the next several years being sick ever weekend. It is debilitating. 

I continue to struggle with 101 fever, heartburn, painful abdominal pains, nausea, and terrible aches and pains. Kind of like having the flu. I am returning to the couch and hope that tomorrow is better than today. 

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