Proud of my work -- 16 Years of Service

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



A Remembrance Video of Mattie

February 18, 2023

Saturday, February 18, 2023

Saturday, February 18, 2023

Tonight's picture was taken in February of 2009. Mattie was in his hospital bed and eating a homemade baked cupcake! Why did I bring cupcakes to the hospital? Because I used them as incentives! If Mattie cooperated and participated in physical therapy sessions, he was awarded with a cupcake. Since this was something Mattie still enjoyed eating, I went with it! Chemotherapy and surgery transformed Mattie's appetite, or lack there of! By the time he died, he was emaciated. Therefore, whatever he wanted to eat, that was what we gave him. 


Quote of the day: In order to master a field, you must love the subject and feel a profound connection to it. Your interest must transcend the field itself and border on the religious. ~ Robert Greene


This morning I woke up and I thought for one minute that after breakfast, when all my morning chores were done, that I would take a nap! I never nap, unless absolutely necessary! But it came to my mind and it was truly something I had wanted to do! I am that tired! But like today's quote points out, some of the things we do and love become like part of our daily religion! 

What I am talking about, as being my daily religion, is the Foundation! So instead of taking a nap, I moved to my computer. It is that time of year when I have to turn my attention to Foundation fundraising. Which means planning our virtual Walk. I decided to devote several hours today to designing the Walk website. Of course, like any computer work, it always takes MUCH MUCH longer than you think. 

After several hours of working, I can safely say that I am not any closer to launching the Walk website. To me this is very frustrating! Of course I also work in a fish bowl. My office is right next to the family room. So I hear the TV, all conversations, and when my dad gets up and needs help in the bathroom, I have to stop what I am doing to assist him. Therefore I have to say that I HATE my office. There is no time in the day, other than when I shower and dress, that I have a minute to myself. I have no space, no down time, and never a moment when someone doesn't need something from me. 

Sometimes people ask me.... how do you get any Foundation work done given all that you are balancing? The answer is plain and simple...... Mattie. My commitment to him and our forever bond are what makes me compelled to push myself, to work at all hours to keep his legacy running. 

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