Sunday, September 3, 2023

Sunday, September 3, 2023

Tonight's picture was taken in September of 2008. That day, our neighbor gave Mattie this life sized stuffed animal. His name was "Dandy Dog." It was hand crafted for Mattie and the artist signed the bottom of the boot. Mattie couldn't get over that Dandy Dog was as tall as he was, you can see that Mattie was trying to demonstrate this in the photo. I will never forget all the amazing people around us who tried the best they could to support us, cheer Mattie up, and provide non-stop gifts and cards for over a year. It showed me the incredible spirit and compassion of a united community. 

Quote of the day: Sometimes things fall apart so that better things can fall together. ~ Marilyn Monroe

It was such an awful day that this evening, I left the house for 90 minutes and walked over 6 miles. The only peace I get is escaping the house, not listening to anyone, not absorbing people's stresses, anger, hostility, and other emotions. I truly believe that this is a test of my fortitude and sanity. 

There are many things happening in my house and when I took my parents out to brunch today, my mom kept peppering me. What I need now is support and understanding, and not more stress. Of course in the middle of trying to eat, my dad pooped in his pants and I had to change him in the restroom. But today's brunch was so upsetting, on top of my already upsetting existence, that I literally got up from the table and walked around the restaurant for ten minutes. It was the only thing I could do to keep my sanity. 

On my walk this evening, I saw this beautiful deer. To me this was a sign from Mattie. He is with me, he sees everything going on, and though he isn't physically with me, he stands with me always. This deer symbolized all of that to me..... a mother and son's undying love.