A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



March 30, 2026

Monday, March 30, 2026

Monday, March 30, 2026

Tonight's picture was taken in March of 2005. Mattie was almost three years old by that point. I took a photo of the living room, because it illustrated what I used to refer to as.... hurricane Mattie. This was a typical afternoon of play, things would be everywhere! After each play session, I would clean up and put things back in place. As Mattie got older, he would help me, because I felt it was an important lesson to learn the art of picking up after one's self, and what one had to do as part of a family system. A life skill!


Quote of the day: For a chronic migraine, there are no triggers, life is my trigger. For chronic migrainers there are no cures, there are only patches that will get you through to the next bout. Have we tried, acupuncture, herbal remedies, diets, standing upside down on our heads? Yes. The answer is if we have gotten diagnosed as chronic migraines then we have tried anything, and if by chance we have been able to get up and put our mask on that day please let us wear it, under our sunglasses and large hats. It took a lot to get there, and ain’t nobody got spoons for that. ~ Emily A


It is 5:45pm, and I have a full blown migraine. I was fine all day, and then I went outside to pick up branches and twigs. Also fine. While doing that, I decided to run a load of laundry.... jackets and fleeces for all three of us. What I did not realize, was that in one of my fleece's I had small burnt out lightbulbs in my pockets. I collected these bulbs from the garden lights over the weekend, as I had to replace 12 lightbulbs. Given all I juggle and how I jump from one task to the other, I forgot to throw the bulbs out, and I did not realize they were in my pockets before I ran the laundry. When I opened up the washing machine after it had run its cycle, I found glass everywhere! I spent two hours cleaning up the glass and the stress of this whole incident was enough to bring about a migraine. I could beat myself up over this, but then I remind myself, I am doing the impossible each and everyday! So this is as much as I can write today. May tomorrow be a better day!

No comments: