A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



August 7, 2017

Monday, August 7, 2017

Monday, August 7, 2017

Tonight's picture was taken in August of 2008. Mattie was in his first week or so of treatment. At that point Mattie did not know what he wanted to wear in the hospital. So he stuck with hospital clothes. As Mattie's treatment continued he opted to wear his pajamas. We literally had a ton of pajamas by that point for him to choose from and they had to be button up shirts, because once he had his surgery, he was unable to lift his arms over his head. 

In this photo, you see Mattie wearing a model magic mask he created. He did this in the hospital hallway because when we first entered the hospital an in-patient playroom did not exist. Nonetheless, we made the best of it in the hallway, thanks to the child life staff. To this day, I still have this mask on display in our kitchen. 



Quote of the day: That no one dies of migraine seems, to someone deep into an attack, an ambiguous blessing.Joan Didion



I did not start the day with a headache, but after doing Foundation work today, I have developed a full blown migraine. Which means I am stepping away from the computer for the rest of the day. Until tomorrow. 

1 comment:

Margy Jost said...

Vicki,

I am so sorry about your migraine. Hoping you are sleeping and will wake up feeling better. I know I wondered in the years of my own headaches how I managed to survive. They could be comletely controlling, I am sorry you live with them, constantly!

Mattie's mask is very creative, the coloring & feathers add a lot. I love model magic because it is so pliable but dries nicely.

Mattie's smile always touches my heart❤️