Proud of my work -- 16 Years of Service

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



A Remembrance Video of Mattie

December 25, 2018

Tuesday, December 25, 2018

Tuesday, December 25, 2018 -- Mattie died 484 weeks ago today.

Tonight's picture was taken on Christmas of 2008, our last Christmas with Mattie. Peter and I did just about everything that day to perk up Mattie's spirits. It was a very difficult and heart breaking Christmas as Mattie's depression and traumatic symptoms were almost too much to manage at home alone. Mattie's friends dropped off Rudolph noses, hats, and headbands. Peter dressed himself up and Mattie, and for that brief moment, there were smiles. 






Quote of the day: Christmas, my child, is love in action. ~ Dale Evans



The connectivity on the ship is a nightmare. So I can only post this one photo tonight. I have been photographing the passenger doors on the ship. Somehow people knew they could decorate their doors. I just love walking down the hallways and seeing people's creativity. 

For practically the entire cruise I have been ill. I am struggling with a host of symptoms..... low grade fever, congestion, clogged ears, hoarseness, a post nasal drip and coughing. This morning the cough was so bad that Peter suggested I see the ship's doctor. 

All the over the counter medications are not working, so at 9am, I headed down to the medical center on the ship. It was my first encounter with a ship's doctor and I hope it will be my last. Her bed side manner was abysmal. She is a doctor who feels she knows better and doesn't listen to her patient. She was a foreign trained doctor and clearly has not learned the art of patient centered care. Nonetheless, she did the right thing and put me on antibiotics, cough medicine, a decongestant and nasal spray. I am hoping to feel more human by tomorrow.  

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