A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



December 30, 2022

Friday, December 30, 2022

Friday, December 30, 2022

Tonight's picture was taken in December of 2005. Mattie was three and half years old. That day we took him to Clyde's at Tower Oaks in Rockville, MD. Outside the restaurant is a little pond. A place Mattie loved to hang out and visit while we were dining at the restaurant. That day I sat Mattie down by the pond and we snapped several photos. This one went on the cover of our family Christmas card that year. Ironically I took my parents to this same restaurant today. This is where Dawn, our favorite server works. I think it is rather ironic that this same restaurant has supported me as both a caregiver to a child and now a caregiver to my parents. 


Quote of the day: Kindness can become its own motive. We are made kind by being kind. ~ Eric Hoffer


Today was another blur. I am so worn out that I literally have to drag myself out of bed in the morning. Since our God daughter and her parents were unable to come over on Christmas, we are having them to dinner tomorrow (New Year's Eve). Really any time I try to look normal and host a gathering, it takes WORK! WORK, WORK, and MORE WORK. Mainly because there is nothing normal about my life or household. Therefore trying to make things run smoothly takes an act of God. 

Peter and I prepped food for tomorrow and I baked a three layer chocolate cake this morning. While my dad was at his memory care center, I also set the table and walked Sunny. Literally from the moment I wake up and until I go to bed, I am moving. Moving, yet not physically feeling like myself. 

A few weeks ago, I bought a ham from the farmer's market. So we are baking the ham tomorrow and making all sorts of sides. This is what the table looks like.... it is ready for tomorrow! 


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