A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



May 10, 2024

Friday, May 10, 2024

Friday, May 10, 2024

Tonight's picture was taken in May of 2008. I remember this day like it were yesterday. Mattie came home from school, and because it was a Friday, Peter got off of work early. We walked down to the Washington waterfront, boarded the Matthew Hayes boat, and toured the Potomac River. Mattie LOVED boats, so he was very excited to do this. It wasn't a planned outing, it was more spur of the moment. Maybe that is what made it so memorable. While on the boat, a family offered to take photos of us. This family caught all three of us on camera, which was a rarity! It is hard to believe that two months after this photo was taken, Mattie was diagnosed with cancer. 


Quote of the day: You know you truly love someone when the mere thought of losing them brings you to tears. ~ Unknown


It was another busy day on the Farm! In addition to my usual routine, I am also juggling my mom's friends who are visiting and spending the night. Literally to get ready for a simple dinner, I had to start the day before. Otherwise, with all my tasks, caregiving, and entertaining of my parents, I wouldn't be able to pull this off. 

I bought wild caught halibut today. I love this homemade marinade of caramelized onions, honey, Dijon mustard, olive oil, lemon zest, lemon juice, and fresh herbs. 
I also made a mixed berry cobbler. It is currently in the oven. This is my first time making this. But if it is good, then it will be my go to spring and summer dessert! It was SUPER easy and quick to do. 
Now this was far more labor intensive, because of all the chopping. This is a Mediterranean couscous. It has cucumber, tomatoes, spinach, arugula, mint, and parsley, in a homemade lemon vinaigrette. 

I have to say interacting with people and entertaining are two very difficult things for me to do. I am not myself and so much angst, sadness, and anger are swirling around in my head and heart. It is hard to describe and even harder for others to comprehend my daily existence. 


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