Tonight's picture was taken in February of 2009. It was Valentine's Day! All the things in front of us were things that Mattie created for me. I literally received a box of handmade surprises and Mattie was so proud of his accomplishments. I was deeply touched by his efforts. Mattie and his art therapists worked on these things for at least two hours and while they were working I was not allowed in the child life playroom. I can't tell you what a blessing this playroom was for us because it was in this room Mattie could be a kid, not a kid with cancer. NO TREATMENTS, PROCEDURES, or medicines were allowed in this room, so in essence it was like a safe space that provided a bit of normality.
Quote of the day: When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves. ~ Viktor Frankl
I was so tired last night that I fell asleep with the TV on all night and I was in the same position that I went to bed in.... which was propped upright. The only reason I opened my eyes at 7am, was because Indie was throwing her entire body against my bedroom door. She wanted IN and she wanted breakfast. It was actually fortune that I got up early because I quickly could see that I wasn't feeling well. I have been struggling with a sinus infection for three weeks now. I finished my course of antibiotics on Friday, and on Saturday I started right back to feeling congested, with intense head pain, a horrific sore throat, a post nasal drip that is so bad I feel like I am drowning from the inside out, and today's new addition was terrible ear and tooth pain.
After contending with Indie, I called my doctor's office and left a message. The on call doctor called me back within thirty minutes. She did not want to prescribe me anymore antibiotics, and instead insisted that I be evaluated by a medical provider. Of course my doctor's office is closed until Tuesday. So she recommended that I go to an urgent care that is connected with my doctor's office. Which was a good idea, because this enabled the urgent care to have access to all of my medical records. I debated what to do, meaning do I address this today or wait? I made the executive decision that I had to take care of myself first today. So I booked an appointment at noon, which gave me time to get my dad showered, dressed, downstairs for breakfast, and then I could have him rest in his recliner until I returned. Understand that I take my parents out to brunch every Sunday, so I had a window of 90 minutes to get evaluated and figure out next steps.
I found my way to the urgent care and got checked in. There had to be some sort of medical emergency going on there, because I waited for over 45 minutes to see the physician's assistant. Shane was absolutely lovely! He said my throat looked like a raging river of fluid! Thankfully I do not have an ear infection, but instead have sinusitis, which explains the intense pain and blocked Eustachian tubes. I am back on decongestants, steroid sprays, and Advil around the clock. At this point I don't know what feels more debilitating..... the congestion or the pain from the congestion.
The timing worked out as I came home and took my parents out for brunch. It was a rainy damp day and typically I don't like the rain, but I was thrilled it washed away all the salt and debris on my car. When I got home, I literally toweled off the car, vacuumed inside and removed all the salt debris from the snow storm off the inside and outside of my car. Why was I compelled to do this? Well besides being consumed by cleanliness, my mom told me yesterday that the car was a mess. My response to her yesterday was..... there is only one of me and countless tasks I juggle in any given day. Somehow I view today's rain as a gift from God, because cleaning off a car after it has been rained on is so much easier.
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