Tonight's picture was taken in February of 2006. Mattie was three years old and doing another activity he loved... playing with play-doh. If you look carefully, you can see that Mattie's car carrier was transporting the clay! Mattie stuffed clay into his cars as well. I remember those days so well, and I also recall what a nightmare it was picking up bits and pieces of play-doh everywhere. Yet because this was creative play and Mattie enjoyed it so, I dealt with the consequences. After all how could you resist that smile?!
Quote of the day: Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage. ~ Lao Tzu
Despite not feeling great, I know I committed to guest lecture at the George Washington University on Tuesday for two hours. I am scheduled to present about childhood cancer and loss. Of course there are SO MANY aspects of loss associated with cancer, for both the child and the family. So keeping this presentation focused and to two hours requires thought.
When I was asked a few years ago to speak at the University, I was given an hour. This Tuesday, I have been given the full class period, two hours. So it wasn't as if I could take an old presentation and recycle it. I had to update and expand what I did a few years ago. Typically that wouldn't be so much of a problem, but given my state now, doing anything is like climbing a mountain. But today I finished the power point slides and was able to print out handouts.
Peter and I ran some chores today, but I literally am not myself. I have very little energy, get wiped out easily, and am shaky and light headed. It is the shakiness and light headedness that I find most troubling and it makes me feel unstable. I am happy I have been aggressive this week about getting answers and insights into my symptoms, and I hope to have them next week.
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