Tonight's picture was taken in October of 2002. Though Mattie was six months old, his expression reminds me of myself! I always thought Mattie looked like Peter when he was a baby, but it was around that time in Mattie's development that this all changed. It is down right eerie now as I reflect on this photo, how much we looked alike.
Quote of the day: Today's coronavirus update from Johns Hopkins.
- number of people diagnosed with the virus: 7,535,794
- number of people who died from the virus: 211,513
Why am I highlighting a photo of a purse that looks like a swimming pool? Well it connects with a dream I had last night. But this dream is recurrent, as the content of the dream was very familiar to me when I woke up this morning. Ironically the outcome of this thematic dream is also always the same.
We all have stress dreams. They show up in different ways such as.... we dream we missed a plane, we forgot a key, being late, feeling like we are falling, and being chased. However, my recurrent dream is that my purse is stolen. Of course inside my purse are my wallet, phone, and other odds and ends. But of course the wallet and phone are typically the items in my dream that I am worried about missing and desperately searching to find them and get them back. In last night's dream, I can vividly see myself very upset that I don't have my wallet or phone anymore. While walking around in my dream, I see a large swimming pool. I mean gigantic, not your typical pool. In any case, while walking passed this pool, I tell Peter who is with me that I see my pink purse. It is sinking to the bottom of the pool. Peter, fully clothed, jumps in the pool and rescues the purse. As he hands it to me, I open the purse and everything there is perfectly intact. Nothing was stolen and NOTHING was wet! Then I woke up.
So what does all that mean? Why do I always have a recurrent dream about my purse being stolen? I personally think this has a lot to do with stress. I am less active now, thanks to our COVID restrictions. I am typically very active and running around, but months upon months of restriction has changed my life pattern. Not for the better. So whatever natural anxieties and tensions I live with, have no outlet by day. Therefore, I am quite certain they come out at night.
But to me a purse signifies security, safety, and identity. All things that I have grappled with since Mattie's diagnosis and death. So I am not at all surprised that my anxieties come out in my dreams, but come out sideways.... with a purse and swimming pool. Any case, the dream has stayed with me all day, and got my thinking.
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