A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



December 22, 2020

Tuesday, December 22, 2020

Tuesday, December 22, 2020 -- Mattie died 586 weeks ago today. 

Tonight's picture was taken in December of 2005. Mattie was three years old and that day we took him to one of his favorite restaurants. In front of the restaurant was a little pond with fish and frogs. A place Mattie always wanted to visit at some point during our meal. That day Mattie posed in front of the pond with his beautiful red jacket. This photo was on the cover of our Christmas card in 2005.


Quote of the day: Today's coronavirus update from Johns Hopkins.

  • Number of people diagnosed with the virus: 18,217,159
  • Number of people who died from the virus: 322,585

Look at this sighting outside my parent's house! A dog that looks a bit like Sunny! If Sunny were here he'd have a built in friend!
Though Peter is with us, he is working hard. After all he started a new job. Since most of the company is on the East coast, Peter has to get up at 4am here in order to participate in company calls. He is having very long days, on top of helping me. 

Today was another busy day. It started with taking my dad to see the urologist. My Dad was hospitalized in May because he needed kidney stone surgery. Unfortunately, he has one more stone in his left kidney. However, it is quite big and the doctor feels it is unlikely he will pass it. So we are taking a wait and see approach, with scanning every six months. I very much like his doctor and I feel he is competent and has a good demeanor with patients. 

While at the doctor's office, they did a sonogram of his abdomen to see if the kidney stone is impacting the health of the renal cortex (the outer layer of the kidney). Thankfully, his kidney is in good shape and we all felt relieved to get this good news. 

Since my parents like having their big meal mid-day, I land up starting to cook at 11:30am or noon. So I literally feel like I am in the kitchen all day. Cooking, serving, and cleaning are all full time jobs, but that is only a small component of everything that has to be done here. Laundry, home maintenance, paperwork, managing caregivers, actual caregiving, and the list goes on. I am absolutely worn out with this pace, and there is no relief in sight. 

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