Tonight's picture was taken in October of 2006. Mattie was four years old. I am sure I decided to snap this photo back then because of the eclectic nature of Mattie's clothes. He literally decided to put clothes on top of his pajamas. For no apparent reason, other than why not? There were many unexpected moments of laughter with Mattie. He had a mind of his own and I learned as his parent to embrace his strong will and appreciate the many gifts and challenges he added to our lives. I wish he were alive today, as I could use his strength, force, and loyalty.
Quote of the day: You can clutch the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves your arms too full to embrace the present. ~ Jan Gildwell
Tonight's quote may be exactly true, but given a choice, I much rather live in the past than contend with the present. Nothing makes sense to me, everything from my daily life to our world at a global level. The pain and destruction that people can cause to one another, is beyond what my heart and mind can actually absorb. Therefore, I much rather focus on the past, when I was an intact family of three, who had their whole lives ahead of them. This is my mood for today!
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