Tuesday, February 18, 2025

Tuesday, February 18, 2025 -- Mattie died 782 weeks ago today.

Tonight's picture was taken in February of 2008. That weekend we took Mattie to Roosevelt Island. A park we visited regardless of the season or weather! It was so close to home and Mattie loved it! I tried to save up bread for Mattie, so that when we visited the Island, we would have a supply. Mattie loved feeding the ducks! 

Quote of the day: Your friends will believe in your potential, your enemies will make you live up to it. ~ Tim Fargo

This morning I met with the electric company and had to notarize a document about the placement of this large transformer box. Truly, you can't imagine how big this box is, until you see it for yourself. Two weeks ago, I learned this big box was going to be installed along my front property line. Meaning, though it wouldn't be on my property, it would be very visible from all my front windows, not to mention an eye sore from the street. It was just happenstance that I learned about this box placement. I will always be grateful to the contractor on-site who chatted to me and my neighbors about this installation. In any case, after a lot of advocacy, this box is now sitting among trees and bushes, camouflaged from view. I am very grateful to the team lead that met with me this morning, who listened to my concerns, and thought outside the box about preserving the natural beauty of the property. 

When I came home with my parents this afternoon, I felt something was off! You know that feeling, that something is different, but what is it??? As I approached my driveway, I noticed this box with a yellow sticker. This box wasn't there this morning! So naturally I contacted the electric company as I want explanations regarding this splice box. A box I did not know was going to be installed, and installed on my property no less.  A splice box houses and protects wire connections (splices) between different electrical cables. Not only do I now have the box, but I have dirt all over the place in piles. 

So I await answers!

Later today, I went out to the backyard to pick up fallen branches and sticks from the wind storms we have had over the last two days. Mind you, a large bin just like this one was picked up by our trash service today. I can't keep up with the fallen debris! 

There are some days that I just seem to get by, managing tasks, bills, caregiving, and issues. Then there are days when I really miss my life, or what I thought my life was like and was going to look like in the future. I miss so many aspects of my life and it is a feeling that is hard to convey, probably hard to listen to or to even understand. Which is why some days I am mad, some days I am sad, and some days I don't see a way forward. Yet I have to pull it together, because tomorrow will be somewhat of a repeat of today.