A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



October 4, 2025

Saturday, October 4, 2025

Saturday, October 4, 2025

Tonight's picture was taken in October of 2007. Mattie was five years old and that weekend we took Mattie to Glen Echo Park in Maryland. This is a wonderful park that has a children's theatre, a marionette puppet theatre company, and this wonderful Dentzel carousel. I can't tell you how many visits to this park we made over the years. I am not sure who loved the puppet shows more... me or Mattie. I admired the creativity and skills of this company who designed their own marionettes and brought them to life. Truly the shows were so engaging that you could hear a pin drop in the audience! But no visit to the park was ever complete without us going on the carousel. Unlike Mattie, I dislike rides. However, the one ride we had in common was the carousel. We would sit next to each other and enjoy hearing the music as we bopped up and down on our horse of choice!


Quote of the day: It scares me how hard it is to remember life before you. I can't even make the comparisons anymore, because my memories of that time have all the depth of a photograph. It seems foolish to play games of better and worse. It's simply a matter of is and is no longer. David Levithan


It was a tough morning getting my dad showered and dressed. Every other day, I am dealing with intense irritable bowel issues, and by the time I got my dad downstairs this morning, I felt like I went ten rounds. 

My dad had a physical therapy session this morning. While the therapist was working with my dad, I went outside to work on setting up our pumpkin inflatable. My mother in law gave us this gift in 2021, when we moved into the house. I have put it out on display every year.

While I was out there struggling to set this pumpkin up, several children in the neighborhood were riding their bicycles. They stopped to say hello to me and to let me know that they always look forward to seeing this cute pumpkin. I can't tell you how that made my day!

It was such a glorious weather day that I continued doing outdoor chores. I weeded several flower beds out front and then I decided to take on cleaning the windows on the first floor. Since our house has so many windows, when they are dirty, it makes you feel like you are living in a dirty fish bowl. So I went at it! Some people may dislike cleaning or doing windows.... I on the other hand.... LOVE to clean. Somehow it makes me feel productive, gets me moving, forgetting about my problems, and it beautifies my living environment. So it is a win win! 


This evening, I went outside to throw away trash. As soon as I walked onto the steps, I saw something that looked like a leaf, and yet didn't! I am well versed in the praying mantis. We used to get many of them in the city! Can you see this fellow was looking right at me?!

Did you know that many cultures view a praying mantis sighting as a sign of good fortune, even a sign of divine protection or a spiritual guardian watching over you? All I know is that I take whatever divine intervention and protection that is coming my way!  

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