A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



May 29, 2026

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Tonight's picture was taken in May of 2006. It was Memorial Day weekend and we took Mattie to Sesame Street Place in Pennsylvania. I learned about this theme park through Mattie's preschool. It is geared toward preschoolers and since Mattie LOVED Elmo, he was very excited to visit. While at the park we bought Mattie an Elmo balloon! But then a life sized Elmo was walking around and he gave Mattie another balloon! As you can see the park has a photo op of the classic Sesame Street green door and steps, seen on every episode! It was a weekend I will never forget. 




Quote of the day: You have power over your mind – not outside events. Realize this, and you will find strength. ~ Marcus Aurelius


Today is like my last straw! I have so many issues and problems now stacking up all around me. However, I feel until I manage this mortgage assumption, everything else is on hold. Clearly my life isn't complicated enough, so why not throw more on Vicki. 

While working on my computer, I heard tapping! At first I thought it was my mom upstairs, but then I realized.... NO! It is a woodpecker! I am a big nature person, but this bird is driving me crazy! Look at the big holes he is making!

This is when I want to scream! I lost my life partner, who I could turn to, and together we would take on these challenges. These holes are located right near my outdoor stairs, making it impossible to get on a ladder and fix the holes and perhaps put a bird deterrent in the area!

See the stairs! I even tried to open my office window to stand on the ledge to deal with this problem, but don't you know it.... the window is sealed shut. I can't open it! It is stuck! Literally it is the story of my life, a life that I am left to balance alone. 

Some days, I am so so angry, and all I can say is that fortunately I am not a violent person, because I can absolutely understand how emotions could take over when someone is so deeply hurt!

Any case, I was chatting with my former mother-in-law, and we have devised a scheme. I bought a water soaker (you know the ones kids use), and I plan on filling it with water and vinegar. When that bird starts pecking, he will get doused! I have to change his behavior, so that he pecks a tree and not the house! Until I correct his behavior, it makes no sense in filling the holes! Seriously since 2023, I have faced just about every possible crisis and unfortunately the issues just keep piling up!

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