Monday, June 8, 2026

Monday, June 8, 2026

Tonight's picture was taken in June of 2003. Mattie was a year old! He wasn't walking independently yet and this frustrated Mattie to no end. Yet he would scoot around the first floor, exploring, creating, and building. Mattie was busy working on something in the dining room, and he wasn't expecting me to be behind him taking a photo! Nonetheless, look at that adorable smile I received!

Quote of the day: Some people are going to leave, but that's not the end of your story. That's the end of their part in your story. ~ Faraaz Kazi

For two years, I have been communicating daily with a woman who lives in England. I met her through an on-line support group. I hated the support group, but it only took one session for this woman and I to instantly connect. So much so, that we have shared everyday together for the last two years. Some days, we are each other's life line, because it is hard to describe the nature of the pain, trauma, and heartbreak that we are experiencing. Our stories are different, but yet there are many overlaps. Last night, she went to a choir concert, and sent me a short video of one of the songs. When I heard the song, I immediately said to myself..... I know this! Because the song was performed in a big building, where the acoustics weren't the best, I couldn't hear the word. But I was determined to find the name of the song I was hearing. It came to me around 11pm. The song is..... and so it goes! There are many versions of this song, but the one that I absolutely love was performed by Billy Joel. I found the video and sent it to my friend. 

Though this song was written decades ago, it speaks so beautifully to heartbreak, pain, and being vulnerable. It turns out that Billy Joel wrote it after a break up. No surprise to me. If you have never heard this song, I attached it below. But the song ends with....

So I would choose to be with you

That's if the choice were mine to make

But you can make decisions too

And you can have this heart to break

And so it goes, and so it goes

And you're the only one who knows

It is hard to live life with a heart broken. I am hoping with time that this hollow, empty, and decimated feeling will ease, but I am now two years and 9 months into this journey, and the pain remains.