Tonight's picture was taken in June of 2002. Mattie was two months old. We were sitting outside on our deck in Washington, DC and I snapped a photo of my two boys. I love the facial expressions on both Peter and Mattie. Peter looked happy and in love with the bundle he was holding and Mattie looked focused and in deep concentration.
Quote of the day: The human capacity for burden is like bamboo - far more flexible than you'd ever believe at first glance. ~ Jodi Picoult
I am so glad that Mary Ann sent me this photo because it reminded me of times I spent with my friends, the beauty of our city garden that we created each spring, and what it also helped me see is that I worked hard to find my way out of great devastation from losing Mattie. It took great strength, courage, and determination to want to survive and to get to where I was in 2016.... which was a more stable place than when Mattie died in 2009.
In a way, the photo instills hope. Because I would say I am once again facing a difficult crossroads in my life. Caring for two parents with dementia takes on a life of its own, it consumes me, my energy, my focus, and there are consequences both short and long term on my life and my relationships. I am well aware of things falling apart all around me, and this photo helps to remind me that I do have what it takes to find my way through this too.
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