Tonight's picture was taken in August of 2008. Mattie was diagnosed with cancer weeks before this photo was taken. Our whole world was shaken. That day, Mattie went with our neighbor and his dog, JJ, for a walk. Mattie always wanted a dog of his own, and I am grateful for JJ, because Mattie got to grow up with this cute pup! Mattie had all the joys of having access to a dog and anytime Mattie was home from treatment, JJ came down to visit with Mattie. After Mattie died, JJ was severely depressed. JJ wouldn't eat, he would come and sit on my doorstep every afternoon, and if he came into our home, he would find something of Mattie's and bring it back to his own home. It truly was a very touching bond between this Jack Russell Terrier and my Mattie.
Quote of the day: One of the heaviest load so many people are carrying today is neither thoughts about things they lack nor things they wish to have, nor how to manage what they already have, but toxic words that have taken a greater portion of their thoughts and such words not just occupying a great part of their hearts, but also draining their very joy in life! ~ Ernest Agyemang Yeboah
For two days now, Indie has been having bowel movements outside of her litter box. Indie is typically a clean cat, and I clean out her box daily. On Sunday morning, I figured she was giving me a message..... change the litter completely. So I did! But I was stunned to find the same issue this morning. If this continues, she will have to go to the vet, as this could be a sign she is ill. Though she is behaving normally and eating just fine.
After I dropped my dad off at his memory care center, I went to the pharmacy to pick up his scripts. The main pharmacist, knows my whole family. She is great with my parents and super helpful! While there, the woman behind the counter wanted me to know that she loved what I was wearing. I of course thanked her, but I chuckled inside, because truly some days, I don't know how I put myself together at all.
Once I got home, I was determined to contact the Geek Squad. I have them do check ups of my computers every two months. Given that my dad was in the hospital in July, my check up date came and went. Since technology is NOT my forte, I dread doing this activity. Today, I got up the courage to sit down and do the process on-line. The process was more complicated today and it took overall about 2.5 hours, working with two different techs (for each computer) at the same time. Nothing I ever do is quick and easy, but since I do not have these skills and can't consult my husband about any of this, I decided months ago to get outside help. I know my limitations. I am going into the store on Wednesday, and meeting a tech person live, because I want instruction on my phone, how to update it, and I have other questions about how to back up my files on my laptop. My husband had a whole system in our house! It made sense for us, as he was maintaining it but now I just have no idea what I am doing and I can't get the external back up drive to work. This makes me very uneasy, as I want to back up photos, personal files, and all Foundation files. Truly why must things be so hard? Who walks away from a 37 year relationship and has NO REGARD what so ever for anything I am left to figure out on my own??????!!!!!!!
This afternoon, I took my mom out for tea. By the time I got there, I felt like a basket case, between technology issues, managing the insurance claim, and renovation plans. On the way to Starbucks, we ran into a man with a dog. I have seen both of them before. Turns out the dog is 6 months old and she is an absolute love. She came right up to me and loved the attention and pets on her head and ears. For those moments I was with Leava, I forget about all my issues. The beauty of a dog!
When I got back home in the afternoon, I still was wound up like a top. So I decided to rake up all the leaves that fell on my driveway and front walkway. There were so many leaves that I filled up an entire greens barrel. Could I have blown the leaves away, probably, but then one good gust of wind, and they would have been right back to the driveway! If only it could be warm and sunny 365 days a year. The notion of transitioning to Fall and Winter right now is not appealing. Everything is harder in colder weather, caregiving is more challenging and not being able to go out and work in my garden is a major problem. My garden is my therapy.
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