A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



November 12, 2026

Thursday, November 12, 2026

Thursday, November 12, 2026

Tonight's picture was taken in November of 2007. As we did most weekends, we went to Roosevelt Island. It was a special place that was practically in our backyard in Washington, DC. We traversed the Island during all seasons. Mattie loved it, and I loved watching Mattie explore and have an outdoor adventure. Since we moved to Virginia in 2021, I have yet to be back to the Island. The Island holds memories of the three of us together and then when Mattie died, the two of us would walk the Island to feel a closeness to Mattie. When Sunny came along, we introduced him to the Island too and naturally he took to it like a duck to water.  If only I could turn back the hands of time.

Quote of the day: Life's under no obligation to give us what we expect. ~ Margaret Mitchell


It is 9:15pm, and it has not been a good day. My dad had numerous irritable bowel accidents today. Each one worse than the other. I went through four pairs of pants today, and was doing countless loads of laundry. He did have a physical therapy session, and after he rested for about two hours, I then took my parents out to lunch. Before getting my dad in the car, I changed him completely. I got them into the restaurant, and within five minutes of sitting down, I had to take my dad to the bathroom again. The clean up was over the top. I was gone from the table a long time. While I was in the bathroom, our regular server, Tammy, and her manager were observing what I was dealing with, as I am sure the average customer of theirs do not handle what I do! Literally when I came back to the table, Tammy said to me that I am angel. An angel that is getting beaten down with each and every day. Later on Tammy's manager, Kenneth, came over to me and said that he was gifting me an entire cheesecake to take home. He wanted me to know that he thinks I am a very unique and special woman.

Though I could probably eat an entire cheesecake myself, I am gifting it to my dad's memory care center tomorrow. I figure the staff will enjoy this treat on a Friday. Needless to say, tonight I am distraught. If that wasn't bad enough, my Foundation email has been down all day due to the nationwide Microsoft outage and don't get me started on my shared drive. It removed all my files today. This is a system my other half established for us years ago, but now the system is acting buggy. The problem is the Foundation has big, big files and saving them on the cloud would be costly. So I have got to figure this out. One good thing is I bought an external drive a year or so ago, and thankfully I have back up photos and Foundation files on it, because I can't keep dealing with this stress. If I lost Mattie photos and Foundation files altogether, I literally would jump out the window.

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