A Remembrance Video of Mattie

Thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive!

Dear Mattie Blog Readers,

It means a great deal to me that you take the time to write and to share your thoughts, feelings, and reflections on Mattie's battle and death. Your messages are very meaningful and help support me through very challenging times. I am forever grateful. As my readers know, I promised to write the blog for a year after Mattie's death, which would mean that I could technically have stopped writing on September 9, 2010. However, like my journey with grief there is so much that still needs to be processed and fortunately I have a willing support network still committed to reading. Therefore, the blog continues on. If I should find the need to stop writing, I assure you I will give you advanced notice. In the mean time, thank you for reading, thank you for having the courage to share this journey with me, and most importantly thank you for keeping Mattie's memory alive.


As Mattie would say, Ooga Booga (meaning, I LOVE YOU)! Vicki



November 7, 2022

Monday, November 7, 2022

Monday, November 7, 2022

Tonight's picture was taken in November of 2007. Mattie was five years old and was in kindergarten. That day in school, Mattie lost a tooth. But my recollection was Mattie's tooth came out suddenly and it hit his friend, Tim. Mattie's teacher captured the tooth and taped it to this piece of paper. You can see Mattie's two eyes peeping out from behind the paper. 


Quote of the day: Here’s what I know: death abducts the dying, but grief steals from those left behind. ~ Katherine Owen


After I got my dad up, washed, dressed, and had breakfast, he then went to his memory care program. I had about an hour to myself to do some work before I had to take my mom to her physical therapy appointment. I constantly feel stressed out because I can't get a solitary thing done. I am trying to work on our end of the year mass mailing and it requires a lot of time and organization. An hour did not cut it today, and in fact when the hour was up, I felt so angry that I had to stop working. As I had just begun to get something done. But it is the story of my life now as a caregiver. I can't keep up with personal emails, phone calls, and work. It is my hope that people in my life understand. Yet not everyone reads the blog nor understands what I juggle in a given day. 

After my mom's therapy appointment, I took her to CVS, the bank, we did other chores and we got tea and snack out before returning home. It was a glorious weather day today and for a brief moment, I got outside with Peter and Sunny. 

It is hard to believe that Sunny is 11 and on chemo. He is a very happy and loving dog. He has been a part of our lives since 2016, and he has added such joy and love into our lives. 


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